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August 24, 2005

Fill 'Er Up

The last few weeks I have really been struggling with food. The past few days however have been a full out disaster. I have been eating all kinds of terrible foods and instantly regreting it. But the regret hasn't stopped me. Eat, Regret, Repeat. Why, oh why have I been doing this?

After a great discussion last night, I have come to realize that I was seeking out food as a comfort, out of habit. I believe this habit has resurfaced because I have been facing down some serious demons lately (EBF, School...) Here's the kicker though, I haven't gotten any comfort out of the food I've eaten. And that is a good thing! It's good because getting nothing but negative feelings as result of those bad choices doesn't reinforce and encourage that behavior. It is also good because it helps to show me that I am dealing with the challenges that I am facing rather than allowing myself to hide behind food. I am not sure if that explination is going to makes sense to anyone else, but it is crystal clear for me.

So how do I kick the habit? Most anyone who has tried to break a habit will tell you to replace the negative habit with a positive one. I used to fill my life with food. Snacking, social eating and the like. What will I fill my life with now? That's the real question I need to answer.

Quote of the Day:
The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, but wiser people so full of doubts.
Bertrand Russell (1872 - 1970)

Posted by La on August 24, 2005 9:44 AM

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What a fun question!! I think next week's webring topic should be "name one bad habit you want to get rid of, and name 10 positive habits to add to your life" :) Here is my list for you though "Things for you to fill your life up with now" (I suggest more than one thing, since you're trying to replace a habit performed a few times daily):
1) Jam making (you're already on a roll with this one!)
2) Plant a garden in your yard, so you can make jam from your own fruit, and healthy vegetable dishes
3) Make a compost pile!
4) Volunteer as a music therapist? http://www.musictherapy.org/handbook/career.html
5) Learn a musical instrument, to go along with your lovely voice
6) Learn a foreign language (Learn Swedish with me, Learn Swedish with me!)
7) Wedding planning!
8) More crocheting/knitting?
9) Telephone/send "real mail" regularly to grandparents
10) Build on all the regular writing practice you've gotten with this blog, and start outlining your first novel! ;)

Posted by: Red at August 24, 2005 11:44 AM