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September 9, 2005
Turmoil and Angst, II (Continued)
Angsty Issue #2 - I don't enjoy my work...continued.
I am just wrapping up a difficult week. My sadness about the state of the gulf coast is magnified through the lense of hormones and my lack of coping mechanisms when it comes to stress. I have been eating as a buffer, but knowing I am veiring off course from my diet goals only causes more stress. Vicious cycle. Huricane Katrina is so huge it's hard for me to even wrap my head around it.
I bring this up because the destruction wrought by Huricane Katrina has reminded me how short and fragile life is, how much time I have wasted being afraid. We don't get enough time here to waste it. So I have taken action and gone back to school. That's great, go me! But what about right now? I am not reaching my potential today.
Today I am sitting at a desk, working a job that plays on my weaknesses and requires me to approach tasks in ways that are unatural for me. I am not built for multi-tasking. For me, trying to do more than two things at once guarantees errors and unecessary difficulty. I lose track of where I am in my work, too often missing steps or duplicating effort. The possibility of making a major mistake hangs over me like a storm cloud. Usually it is tolerable. Occassionally when the deadlines are tight and my plate is full I feel overwhelmed, anxious and miserable. I am not a lot of fun to work with either.
This brings us to the question of the day. What changes can I make to make my work life more satisfying while I work toward a degree?
Quote of the Day:
If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it.
--Mary Engelbreit
